May 13, 2016
I’m not sure how time has this way of making some days seem like they’re crawling, especially when your days are full of fussy babies, fighting kids, runny noses, getting coughed on (in the face) and figuring out what’s for dinner EVERY SINGLE night. But on the other hand time is flying by so fast I barely have time to say “wait slow down”. We go through life week by week trying to get to the weekends or make it to the next month when we have a vacation but little do we know, those not so important days are going by and before we know it, we look back and 365 days are gone. We can never get them back, we can’t relive those first smiles, steps, lost teeth, first day of school or birthdays. Everyday on the journey of motherhood is special in it’s own way, I know that in 10 years I’m going to miss the chaos that I’m living in right now. I had such an amazing Mother’s Day, I love being a mom. Some days I feel like I’m going crazy and I’m just not going to make it through the day but other days I want to just sit an hold my babies all day long and not let them go grow up. If I hold them forever they can’t get bigger right? As we head into this weekend my littlest lady is turning 2 years old and my oldest lady is turning 7. I’m not sure I can comprehend the fact that I’ve been a mom for 7 years, am I really that old? Ellyana Lynn made me a mom. She came into the world via c section and weighed 8lbs 4oz. I had no idea how overwhelming the love would be when I saw her. It’s a kind of love that consumes you, all of a sudden you would do anything in the world for this tiny little person. She was the best baby a first time mom could ask for! I spent every second I could just snuggling and holding her, soaking in all that new motherhood had to offer. And now here I am 7 years later, my first born baby is growing into this little lady who wants to pick out her outfits, change her earrings herself and have her hair straightened. As hard as it is to see her changing and growing, it’s so exciting as a parent. She has her bossy/sassy side (like her mom) but she is truly the sweetest little girl. She takes all life has to offer her with wide open arms and a smile on her face. She is amazing and I can’t wait to see her grown and change even more over the years, Happy 7th Birthday Elly! My youngest baby girl is leaving her baby stage in the dust. Harper Rory was also born via c section coming in two pounds smaller then Elly at 6lbs 4oz and 3 weeks early. Harper made her presence known in this world well before she took her first breaths. From the time that I hit 24 weeks and started having pregnancy complications until I was 37 weeks she was a little spit fire. I was on bedrest for contracting on a thin uterus with high blood pressure and bordering on preeclampsia for weeks. I ended my last week and a half on hospital bedrest with 24/7 monitoring. When I look back at those months I wonder how I made it, only by the grace of God.
Harpers pregnancy happened at a crazy time in our lives, my husband had just lost his job and we had some other things going on in our life that just seemed out of our control and honestly it was just a tough time. I feel like God sent us this little piece of heaven to give some light into everything that was going on. It wasn’t exactly planned but God knew exactly what we needed. After my roller coaster of a pregnancy, they decided to take her 3 weeks early and I was left worrying if she was going to be healthy enough to come home with me when I left the hospital. When the Dr took her out and they checked her and told me she was completely healthy I lost it. I was so relieved that it was over and me and my baby were finally safe. I held her and just thanked God for everything He had given me and taking care of both of us. It was the most emotional birth of all my girls. I remember our stay in the hospital after her birth, I didn’t want to put her down, she barely slept in her little bassinet, either Jud or I held her. Boy has this little one given me a run for my money. She is the fastest, loudest, craziest baby in the world I think. I thought it was going to be hard to top Jordyn but Harper has done it. I don’t think she has a ounce of fear in her and she is so curious about everything, when you put those two together it gets scary. I can’t take my eyes off her for a second, if it’s quite in the house I go looking for her to see what she’s done. I don’t know if it’s just me but I think 2 is the best age we’ve experienced. It’s so fun because they are talking, walking little people now but still don’t have a grasp of life yet. They are carefree and soaking in everything, Harper is also a riot. I laugh at her so much, she brings so much joy to our family. I can’t imagine my life without her. We adore you Harper, Happy 2nd Birthday!
I can’t wait to see what this year holds for these two incredible kiddos. I’m so thankful that they get to call me mom!